No internal monologue

1. The Last Thing He Told Me (1/2024)
2. What If? s2 (1/2024)
3. The Magicians s2 (1/2024)
4. Silo s1 (1/2024)
5. Below Deck Down Under s1 (1/2024)
6. Reacher s2 (1/2024)
7. Slow Horses s1 (1/2024)
8. Slow Horses s2 (1/2024)
9. Hijack s1 (1/2024)
10. Criminal Record s1 (1/2024)
11. True Detective s4 (1/2024)
12. Masters of the Air (1/2024)
13. American Nightmare (2/2024)
14. Monsieur Spade (2/2024)
15. The Magicians s3 (2/2024)
16. Married at First Sight AU s11 (2/2024)
17. Curb Your Enthusiasm s12 (2/2024)
18. Arctic Ascent with Alex Honnold (2/2024)
19. Love is Blind s6 (2/2024)
20. Zom 100 (3/2024)
21. The Bachelor s28 (3/2024)
22. Invasion s1 (4/2024)
23. The Magicians s4 (4/2024)
24. Conan O’Brien Must Go s1 (4/2024)
25. 3 Body Problem s1 (5/2024)
26. Everybody’s in L.A. (5/2024)
27. Baby Reindeer (5/2024)
28. Atlanta s4 (5/2024)
29. Reservation Dogs s2 (5/2024)
30. Real Housewives of New Jersey s12 (5/2024)
31. For All Mankind s4 (5/2024)
32. Top Chef s12 (5/2024)
33. Doctor Who 2023 (5/2024)
34. Succession s4 (5/2024)
35. The Boys s2 (5/2024)
36. Lover Stalker Killer (5/2024)
37. The Acolyte s1 (6/2024)
38. The Boys s3 (6/2024)
39. Slow Horses s3 (6/2024)
40. Sugar s1 (6/2024)
41. The Bear s3 (7/2024)
42. Perfect Wife Sherry Paini (7/2024)
43. House of the Dragon s2 (7/2024)
44. Barbecue Showdown s3 (7/2024)
45. Presumed Innocent (7/2024)
46. Great Food Truck Race s17 (7/2024)
47. Love is Blind Mexico s1 (8/2024)
48. Severance s1 (8/2024)
49. Bad Monkey s1 (8/2024)
50. Tokyo Vice s1 (8/2024)
51. The Resort (8/2024)
52. Love is Blind UK s1 (8/2024)
53. Spec Ops: Lioness s1 (8/2024)
54. Star Trek: Lower Decks s3 (8/2024)
55. Monsters s2 (9/2024)
56. The Golden Bachelorette s1 (9/2024)
57. Evil s1 (9/2024)
58. the Terminal List (10/2024)
59. Love is Blind s7 (10/2024)
60. slow horses s4 (10/2024)
61. Married at First Sight s18 (10/2024)
62. Love is Blind Habibi (10/2024)
63. Hells Kitchen s23 (10/2024)
64. Interior Chinatown (11/2024)
65. Top Chef Canada s11 (11/2024)
66. The Secret Lives of Mormon Wives (11/2024)
67. Below Deck Mediterranean s8 (11/2024)
68. Say Nothing (11/2024)
69. Cross s1 (11/2024)
70. Goblin Slayer s1 (11/2024)
71. The Agency s1 (12/2024)
72. Evil s2 (12/2024)
73. Cold Case JonBenet (12/2024)
74. Patriot s1 (12/2024)
75. Black Doves s1 (12/2024)
76. Silo s2 (12/2024)
77. Love After Lockup s5 (12/2024)
78. Landman s1 (12/2024)
79. Generation Kill (12/2024)
80. Squid Game s2 (12/2024)
81. What we do in the shadows s5 (12/2024)
82. Patriot s2 (12/2024)

1. 5.0/10 Big Bear (12/30/24)
2. 5.5/10 Anyone But You (11/10/24)
3. 5.5/10 It Ends With Us (12/21/24)
4. 5.5/10 Y2K (12/30/24)
5. 6.0/10 Carry On (12/20/24)
6. 6.0/10 Diary of a Mad Black Woman (3/23/24)
7. 6.0/10 Host (1/26/24)
8. 6.0/10 Longlegs (8/24/24)
9. 6.0/10 The Lovely Bones (3/31/24)
10. 6.0/10 Remember Me (12/1/24)
11. 6.0/10 Sum of All Fears (2/24/24)
12. 6.5/10 Freaknik (3/23/24)
13. 6.5/10 it’s what’s inside (10/31/24)
14. 6.5/10 Spin Me Round (8/29/24)
15. 6.5/10 Under Paris (6/15/24)
16. 6.5/10 Wedding Crashers (8/16/24)
17. 6.5/10 Wolfs (10/1/24)
18. 7.0/10 A Quiet Place: Day One (10/19/24)
19. 7.0/10 Asteroid City (11/25/24)
20. 7.0/10 Black Box (7/24/24)
21. 7.0/10 Juror #2 (12/25/24)
22. 7.0/10 Land of Bad (11/29/24)
23. 7.0/10 Logan Lucky (10/20/24)
24. 7.0/10 Meet Cute (1/1/24)
25. 7.0/10 M3gan (8/17/24)
26. 7.0/10 Rebel Moon Chapter Two: The Curse of Forgiveness (8/17/24)
27. 7.0/10 Saltburn (1/6/24)
28. 7.5/10 Deadpool vs. Wolverine (8/4/24)
29. 7.5/10 The Fall Guy (6/7/24)
30. 7.5/10 Guardians of the Galaxy vol 3 (3/31/24)
31. 7.5/10 Hit Man (7/4/24)
32. 7.5/10 Kandahar (5/25/24)
33. 7.5/10 Rebel Moon: Chalice of Blood (8/10/24)
34. 7.5/10 Rebel Ridge (12/18/24)
35. 7.5/10 Snack Shack (12/2/24)
36. 7.5/10 Starship Troopers (2/25/24)
37. 7.5/10 What You Wish For (12/25/24)
38. 8.0/10 Conan the Barbarian (2/10/24)
39. 8.0/10 Fail Safe (5/2/24)
40. 8.0/10 Society of Snow (3/2/24)
41. 8.0/10 13 Assassins (5/4/24)
42. 8.0/10 The Wild Robot (9/28/24)
43. 8.5/10 The Killer (1/6/24)
44. 8.5/10 Tenet (7/8/24)
45. 9.0/10 Dune Part Two IMAX 70mm (3/25/24)
46. 9.0/10 The Godfather (11/10/24)
47. 9.0/10 Oppenheimer IMAX 70mm (1/12/24)

I can’t remember where I found it, but someone had a really good illustration of how grief works. They compared it to a ball bouncing around inside a box. On one of the inside walls of the box is a big button, and every time that ball hits that button, the grieving feelings happen. At first, the ball is pretty much the same size as the inside of the box and is constantly pushing against the button. Then the ball slowly starts to shrink until it can occasionally roll away from the button, but it still hits it a lot. Then less and less, until the ball is just something that bounces around inside the box and only rarely hits the button. The impact is still the same every time it hits the button, it just hits it less and less over time.

1. Narcos: Mexico s1 (2/2023)
2. Real Housewives of New Jersey s12 (1/2023)
3. Real Housewives of New Jersey s13 (2/2023)
4. The Last Panthers (2/2023)
5. What We Do in the Shadows s3 (2/2023)
6. Married at First Sight AU s11 (2/2023)
7. Band of Brothers (3/2023)
8. Book of Boba (3/2023)
9. Yellowjackets s2 (3/2023)
10. Love is Blind s4 (3/2023)
11. Ark s1 (3/2023)
12. The Night Agent (4/2023)
13. Extrapolations (4/2023)
14. Black Mirror s4 (4/2023)
15. Mrs. Davis s1 (5/2023)
16. Barry s4 (5/2023)
17. succession s4 (7/2023)
18. Smartless (5/2023)
19. Star Trek Strange New Worlds s1 (7/2023)
20. Star Trek Strange New Worlds s2 (7/2023)
21. The Bear s2 (7/2023)
22. Great Food Truck Race s16 (7/2023)
23. For All Mankind s2 (7/2023)
24. For All Mankind s3 (7/2023)
25. The Mandalorian s3 (7/2023)
26. This Fool s2 (8/2023)
27. Yellowstone s1 (8/2023)
28. How to With John Wilson s3 (8/2023)
29. Twisted Metal s1 (8/2023)
30. Black Mirror s5 (8/2023)
31. Telemarketers (9/2023)
32. Yellowstone s2 (9/2023)
33. Below Deck s10 (9/2023)
34. Arrested Development s1 (9/2023)
35. Love is Blind s5 (9/2023)
36. Arrested Development s2 (10/2023)
37. Ms. Marvel s1 (10/2023)
38. Married at First Sight s17 (10/2023)
39. The Golden Bachelor s1 (10/2023)
40. Ahsoka s1 (11/2023)
41. Secret Invasion s1 (11/2023)
42. For All Mankind s4 (11/2023)
43. Arrested Development s3 (11/2023)
44. Below Deck Med s3 (11/2023)
45. Ahsoka (11/2023)
46. Nate Bargatze 2019 (11/2023)
47. Nate Bargatze 2020 (11/2023)
48. Nate Bargatze 2023 (11/2023)
49. John Mulaney Baby J (12/2023)
50. Squid Games the Challenge (12/2023)
51. Loki s2 (12/2023)
52. The Curse (12/2023)
53. Blue Eye Samurai s1 (12/2023)

Best Picture

• All Quiet on the Western Front
• Avatar: The Way of Water
• The Banshees of Inisherin
• Elvis
• Everything Everywhere All at Once
• The Fabelmans
• Tar
• Top Gun: Maverick
• Triangle of Sadness
• Women Talking

Best Actor/Actress and Supportings

• The Whale: Brendan Fraser Actor
• Aftersun: Paul Mescal Actor
• Living: Bill Nighty Actor
• Causeway: Brian Tyree Henry supporting
• Blonde: Ana De Armas Actress
• To Leslie: Andrea Riseborough Actress
• Black Panther Wakanda Forever: Angela Bassett supporting

International

• Argentina 1985
• Close
• EO
• The Quiet Girl

it clicked with me why I haven’t been a huge fan of all-inclusives while at the same time liking the idea in theory. This cruise thing about virgin voyages cruises talks about how this cruise ship (line?) Has a concept of small venues on a large ship to offer a lot of variety. This also is reflected in the restaurants where there isn’t a central dining room but instead a bunch of different restaurants you cycle through. The biggest complaint is customers wanting “simple” food not “adventurous” food. This is why all of these places seem so bland, they’re catering to the lowest common denominator. I’m curious if maybe this virgin cruise is any good because it’s catering to my ideas of adventure a bunch of different options to explore

1. Below Deck s9 (1/2/23)
2. Arcane s1 (1/1/23)
3. hells kitchen s21 (1/23)

1. 5.0/10 Meg 2 (11/23/23)
2. 5.0/10 Strays (9/27/23)
3. 5.0/10 Ticket to Paradise (11/23/23)
4. 5.5/10 Freelance (12/11/23)
5. 5.5/10 The Lair (1/14/23)
6. 5.5/10 The Out Waters (8/4/23)
7. 6.0/10 Ant-Man Quantumania (10/1/23)
8. 6.0/10 The Beach (1/15/23)
9. 6.0/10 Blonde (2/25/23)
10. 6.0/10 Cocaine Bear (3/19/23)
11. 6.0/10 The Equalizer 2 (5/1/23)
12. 6.0/10 Exorcist: Believer (10/6/23)
13. 6.0/10 Haunting in Venice (9/22/23)
14. 6.0/10 I’m Totally Fine (2/12/23)
15. 6.0/10 Influencer (5/27/23)
16. 6.0/10 Joy Ride (8/7/23)
17. 6.5/10 Are You There God its me Margaret (12/31/23)
18. 6.5/10 The Blackening (7/23/23)
19. 6.5/10 Crawl (2/19/23)
20. 6.5/10 Elemental (8/5/23)
21. 6.5/10 Ender’s Game (2/18/23)
22. 6.5/10 Flatliners (1/15/23)
23. 6.5/10 Hunter Killer (1/16/23)
24. 6.5/10 I Want You Back (11/26/23)
25. 6.5/10 Johnny Mnemonic in black and white (3/4/23)
26. 6.5/10 The Princess (5/26/23)
27. 6.5/10 Saw X (9/30/23)
28. 6.5/10 Sick (3/3/23)
29. 6.5/10 Sisu (8/30/23)
30. 6.5/10 To Leslie (3/5/23)
31. 6.5/10 Transformers Rise of the Beasts (7/13/23)
32. 6.5/10 Violent Night (12/25/23)
33. 7.0/10 Air (5/14/23)
34. 7.0/10 Ambulance (1/2/23)
35. 7.0/10 Mistress America (8/6/23)
36. 7.0/10 Causeway (2/14/23)
37. 7.0/10 Cobwebs (8/19/23)
38. 7.0/10 Creed III (4/1/23)
39. 7.0/10 Dark Waters (8/2/23)
40. 7.0/10 Deep Impact (9/26/23)
41. 7.0/10 Deepsea Challenger (7/1/23)
42. 7.0/10 Dungeons and Dragons Honor Among Thieves (7/8/23)
43. 7.0/10 The Equalizer (9/15/23)
44. 7.0/10 The Equalizer 3 (9/10/23)
45. 7.0/10 Extraction 2 (8/12/23)
46. 7.0/10 Talk to Me (8/11/23)
47. 7.0/10 The Girlfriend Experience (4/29/23)
48. 7.0/10 Leave
49. 7.0/10 The Whale (2/22/23)
50. 7.5/10 Black Panther Wakanda Forever (8/4/23)
51. 7.5/10 The Civil Dead (12/28/23)
52. 7.5/10 Flight (9/15/23)
53. 7.5/10 Ghost Dog (11/13/23)
54. 7.5/10 Indiana Jones and the Dial of Destiny (7/2/23)
55. 7.5/10 Knock at the Cabin (10/7/23)
56. 7.5/10 Mistaken for Strangers (8/11/23)
57. 7.5/10 Nice Guys (11/24/23)
58. 7.5/10 Plane (2/12/23)
59. 7.5/10 Shotgun Stories (9/9/23)
60. 8.0/10 Apollo 13 (8/5/23)
61. 8.0/10 Barbie (8/6/23)
62. 8.0/10 Contagion (8/24/23)
63. 8.0/10 Don’t Look Up (11/24/23)
64. 8.0/10 Glass Onion (1/1/23)
65. 8.0/10 Logan Lucky (4/3/23)
66. 8.0/10 The Martian (5/28/23)
67. 8.0/10 The Menu (1/7/23)
68. 8.0/10 Rye Lane (9/9/23)
69. 8.0/10 Triangle of Sadness (1/25/23)
70. 8.0/10 You Were Never Really Here (7/29/23)
71. 8.5/10 The Banshee of Inisherin (2/24/23)
72. 8.5/10 How to Blow Up a Pipeline (7/29/23)
73. 8.5/10 Killers of the Flower Moon (10/22/23)
74. 8.5/10 Mission Impossible (8/5/23)
75. 9.0/10 Everything Everywhere All at Once (3/4/23)
76. 9.0/10 How to Blow Up a Pipeline (11/20/23)
77. 9.0/10 Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade (6/26/23)
78. 9.0/10 Oppenheimer (8/13/23)
79. 9.0/10 Raiders of the Lost Ark (6/15/23)
80. 9.0/10 Uncut Gems (9/2/23)

1. Tar
2. Armageddon Time
3. The Banshees of Inisherin
4. After Yang
5. Argentina 1985
6. Crimes of the Future
7. Decision to Leave
8. Everything Everywhere All at Once
9. The Fabelmans
10. Top Gun Maverick
11. Triangle of Sadness
12. The Woman King

Death washes away the future and you become the stuff of myths and legends. You can ascribe any future you want